I'm Scared of Losing You

I can’t stop thinking about what you said the other day —

“Kalau sayang dah takde, semua dokumen dalam beg ni.”

At that moment, I didn’t think much of it. But now, those words keep playing in my head. Over and over.

I know we’re all going to die someday. But still, hearing that from you shook me inside. It made me realise how real it is — how real the fear is.

Every time I sit and eat, I remember it. Every time I’m alone with my thoughts, I feel it.

I’m scared, sayang. Really scared.

The thought of you not being here, not hearing your voice, not feeling your presence — it breaks me. You’re such a big part of me. I don’t know how to be okay without you.

I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want that day to come.

I just want more time with you. As much as we can have.

Because I love you. And I’m scared of the day when I can only say that to the wind.

— From me, who’s holding on tightly to you.