Conflicting Desires
I've been feeling pretty lost before. There are moments when I wish I could just vanish—poof, gone, no more dealing with all of this. On the other hand, there are times when I actually want to be alive, to feel and experience everything life has to offer. It's like I'm caught in this endless back-and-forth. Is it okay to feel this way?
Charles Dickens pernah berkata;
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it was the worst of times,
it was the age of wisdom,
it was the age of foolishness,
it was the epoch of belief,
it was the epoch of incredulity,
it was the season of light,
it was the season of darkness,
it was the spring of hope,
it was the winter of despair."
His words was contradictions from extreme to extreme about melancholy of time. But ever since reading that phrase 17 years ago, I realise that even though that certain moment we've gone through is the worst, that precise moment unfortunately is the best thing can happen at its own time. So I learn to cherish it, appreciate my bad times, as I learn the most from my bad times than from the good times.
You are yet to discover your best values, you have a lot to treasure in this little life, and once you realize that this life is short you will feel that you dont have enough time to do good to the people you loved and loved you, theres no time to hate and despise each other, theres more to cherish and be happy about.
Allah telahpun bersumpah, "Demi Masa, sesungguhnya manusia itu berada dalam kerugian, kecuali yang beriman dan beramal soleh, berpesan² kepada kebenaran dan kesabaran".
This does means, we are doomed unless we do good. :)